I suppose it’s like needing to breathe. Even during the months where I drop off the face of the blog planet I’m still journaling, still writing notes to the people I love, and to be completely honest, still writing the blogs but never hitting that publish button, at least this last disappearance 😑
I got inside my own head and convinced myself no one wanted to read what I wrote so they’re sitting in the drafts folder indefinitely. I’m not entirely sure they’ll ever see the light of day, but I’ve come to terms with the fact that not everything I write here necessarily needs to be published, and that has been oh so freeing ❤️ I most likely won’t ever let anyone read my journals, at least not in my lifetime, so why is here any different?
When I stop writing completely, that is when my brain goes into overdrive and I shut down because there’s too much going on in my head. Even if I’m writing about something completely irrelevant to whatever is causing stress in my life, I can feel the stress leaving my fingers as I type. I can’t explain it any better than that, but my fellow ADHDr’s will know what I mean when I say it quiets the 🐝 so I can fully focus on whatever 💩 life is throwing my way 🥴
Now that I’ve explained why I write, why do I blog? There are so many other outlets and there’s even websites specifically devoted to helping you critique your (insert stupidly long writing project here). The short answer is that blogging doesn’t require nearly as much brain power as say, writing a novel. That is a huge project that takes a stupid amount of preparation. Blogging is relaxing and actually helps me with writing my novel, I can dump whatever is occupying my brain here and focus more fully on my novel.